3 Ways The Bathroom Scale Kept Me Binge Eating

About 3 months back, I did something life-changing.

I tossed out my bathroom scale. For good.

Even though I'd given up on weighing myself, just the fact that I knew it was in the house was kind of a security blanket. 

So believe me- I absolutely get the fear in stepping away from this ritual.

But when I was really struggling with food/body and hopping on the scale regularly, it would almost always lead to a binge.

Here are some scenarios (let me know if you can relate to any)...

1. Weighing myself daily ("bad" number): the panic and anxiety would slowly start to set in. All of my clothes felt tighter. I was convinced my body looked different in the mirror. I'd usually eat like a bird, spend extra time working out...and then almost always binge later that night. Sometimes I could even hold out for a few days of "eating healthy"...but then would almost always undo everything.

2. Weighing myself daily ("good" number): feeling hot, hot hot. Clothes seemed to slip on- I could feel myself floating down the street. I'd reward myself with a "treat"...and then almost always binge. I'd go out to dinner and get the "fun food" because I deserved it...and then slowly find myself overeating on the couch later.

3. “TRYING” to not use the scale: weeks would go by...how is this possible? I feel stronger, lighter, and more confident. When I confidently stepped on the scale, expecting this dramatic weight loss, and saw the number go up I'd legit freak out. I'd either say "screw it" and self-sabotage with food or restrict until I couldn't take it...and then binge.

Needless to say, the scale was ruling my life in a lot of ways...certainly dictating my happiness and self-confidence.

But when I really began to heal my disordered eating- learning how to repair my body chemistry and eat in a way that made me feel balanced and joyful around food...

It felt like this magic secret that was being kept from me for most of my life- I couldn't believe t that I wasn't obsessing over food or my body for most of the day.

But it also made me realize that I was trying to find happiness in a cold, hard tool that I stepped on...instead of myself.

I don't want this for you.

Yes, we all have to eat. And this is why food can feel so confusing sometimes. 

But the meaning behind our meals can absolutely shift.

Food is a way to enhance our life, not control it. 

And when you let go of the hold that it has on you- the thoughts, obsession, guilt, confusion, etc.

P.S. Ready to start feeling more comfortable in your skin from the inside out? Be sure to grab my free Body Acceptance Starter Kit and I’ll show you how to take the first step!