So let me take you back to my 11-year-old self… scrunchies, mini back packs and all. I’d just dipped my toes into the dieting pond that was slowly turning into a sinkhole.
After realizing that my JNCO jeans were a size bigger than my best friends, I grabbed my American Girl Body Book and decided to make some changes.
Little did I know that my innocent attempt with cutting back on the Doritos, would lead to a 15-year battle of restricting, binging, purging, hiding food, lying.... praying every night that I'd wake up the next morning and be able to "stick" to my diet for good this time.
If you feel like you're holding your head above water, trying to do all of the "things" that will switch off your food addiction + constant cravings, I'm here to help.
First! I want you to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Because I certainly never saw it when I was crying in my closet or on the bathroom floor.
The vicious cycle around my food cravings + chronic dieting patterns took up a large majority of my life until I finally decided that enough was enough in my mid-20s. I made a choice that my bucket list was way too long to constantly feel controlled by food... I was hiding snacks at my desk, secretly eating from lunch into the evening. I’d even sneak food in my purse and binge on the way back to my apartment.
I felt like an addict: completely disconnected from myself, my friends and my precious family… not to mention the noticeable damage I’d done on my teeth from the bulimia.
I was terrified of what the road would lead to if I didn’t make a change.
Back then, Health Coaches weren’t really a thing. If only!! And I knew that this wasn’t just about letting go of dieting — there was some serious emotional work that needed to be done in order to make a permanent change.
It was a long road, but I’m forever grateful to the makeshift team that got me through that time. I invested in multiple therapists, resources, opened up to loved ones and really did a deep dive into researching how to use food as medicine + joy… as opposed to abuse + self-harm.